becoming a medical student.... oh snap.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Warning : grammatical errors, blabbering.

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

In a few days... My life as a medical student will begin. But... to start the journey as a doctor-to-be, I am not clear of myself too. I mean, hello kerja doktor penat tahu. Tidur tak cukup, makan tak kenyang, masa tak banyak. Where's the fun?

And the question that has been playing in my mind since long agooo... is... Will I survive in DnT with the hectic schedules? (er masa dah jadi doctor nanti lah)

Or

Will I turn into a robot who is so-called-doctor, doing the same things everyday AIMLESSLY as if I have a reset button on my back? and slowly... forgetting the purpose of my life?

Until....

"Akak tak pernah minat pon dengan medic. Redah je. Tapi lepas akak ikut tarbiyyah, akak sedar Aku nak jadi doktor ni sebab Islam. Sebab Allah. Sebab ini caranya aku nak berdakwah kat orang" -Graduated medical student from Jakarta-

For the sake of Islam. Sounds cliche? Yesss but duhh, it's the answer that I've been looking for.

Not that I never knew that we must do everything only for the sake of Allah.

Not that no one ever told me about that. I've been reminded this lots of time.

But, maybe... because this time, it came out from a medical student itself -(an extra credit: she's a graduated med student. an add up point: murabbiah ;) huu )

If you're doing your work or preparing for you career for the sake of the worldly things - $$$, pangkat, nama, etc... you will come to no end. Because we will never be satisfied for what the dunya can give us.

"What is the life of this world but amusement and play? but verily the Home in the Hereafter,- that is life indeed, if they but knew" - (Al-Ankabut:64)

If you wanna be a doctor, because you wanna help people, do good things, give something to the community etc... then what's the different between you and the other non-muslim doctors from all over the globe?

If you're taking medicine, JUST because you have a special feeling for biology, anatomy, physiology or whatever (i-dont-know-i'm-not-yet-a-medical-student), you will come to an end, er not a good one - that's when you start to get bored of the world of a doctor.

But but but.

If you're studying, no matter what course (accountancy, dentistry, medicine, dietetic etc) for the sake of Allah; to obtain His pleasure, to serve the Ummah or to make Islam proud... With Allah wills, you will be able to walk your journey well. Because this is just like a drama in which you know that a happy ending is awaiting for you at the end of the long-tiring journey. You believe in Allah, in HIS promises and that's the reason why you wont give up (hei hei saya jenis pengalah).

10. O ye who believe! Shall I lead you to a bargain that will save you from a grievous Penalty?-
11. That ye believe in Allah and His Messenger, and that ye strive (your utmost) in the Cause of Allah, with your property and your persons: That will be best for you, if ye but knew!
12. He will forgive you your sins, and admit you to Gardens beneath which Rivers flow, and to beautiful mansions in Gardens of Eternity: that is indeed the Supreme Achievement.
(61:10-12)

You will fall sometimes, but again, duhhh, its human nature. We have our ups and downs moments but with FAITH, it's easier to stand up again and smile after each falls. It's okay to fail, it's okay to get low marks, it's okay to cry. ^_~

‎"what if every single stumble, every challenge, every experience in our life was only intended for one purpose: to bring us back to our origin? What if every win, every loss, every beauty, every fall, every cruelty, and every smile was only intended to unveil another barrier between us and God? Between us and where we began, and where we are desperately seeking to return?" Suhaibwebb.com

But (ye banyak but di sini). Well, we plan, HE plans, and He is the best planner. Mungkin doktor atau apa2 je lah course yang kita ambik bukanlah kerjaya yang terbaik untuk kita. The most we (students) can do now are to pray, give our best effort and tawakkal. kamu buat 3 benda itu, kamu gagal, kamu bukan pengalah. =) Cop, best effort ye, bukan hangat2 tahi ayam style punya effort.

Ok.

Why did I write this?

Er. entah kamu banyak bebel, isi kurang.

Isi penting : Buatlah apa-apa pon, kerja, belajar atau apa2 sekalipon... buatlah sebab tu tu Yang Satu tu, Ar-Razzaq, Al-Wahhab, Ar-Rahman, Ar-Rahim, nescaya kamu tak akan rasa ingin putus asa.

Niat tersembunyi : motivation for myself to start off as a medical student. ['',]b

D : "Kamu kenal kak XXX?"

G : "Tak"

D " "Dia doktor, anak lima dah. Tapi aktif je dalam DnT. Bawah dia ada 800++ adik yang dia kena jaga. Jadi tak ada alasan- tak ada masa. Kalau kita nak, boleh je sebenarnya"

G : *determined, in-awe face*

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Sekian, assalamualaikum.